Write Something, Anything!
It's the start of the day and I feel like numbing myself into oblivion. Doing anything and everything to distract myself as opposed to putting out the necessary effort that it takes to live. I do not know how the day is going to go, but I have decided to do this one thing first, to write something. To express what I am feeling in words, and have those words on some sort of medium that is not the fluid unstable canvas of my own mind.
Here are some thoughts. Some days are like these. They will come again. I am not going to expect to feel proper today, to feel pleasant today. It's OK for some days to be a complete and total slog. And maybe that is what this day will be. But it does not mean that I have to spiral downward into distraction and ultimate frustration. I can still "Do", even if it is a slow slog that brings no real change of the way that I feel. I can still "Do". And maybe, just maybe, there might be something heroic in the "Doing".
Maybe that might be a small win.