To See
My last post here was entitled "No Choice". Almost toward the end of writing it, I remember feeling a sort of peace and a freedom. I am not feeling that feeling now, but I do remember the beauty of it while it existed in that instance.
Struggle is upon me once again. But the circumstances are not the same as in the past. There are support systems, even ones that are not truly meant to be, but are nonetheless. This is a good thing, for as much as I am tempted to act in the same way that I did in the past, I am thinking that the struggles can be faced and the challenges overcome by acting differently.
Maybe then the "trick" to meeting that traumatized part of myself is to be able to "see", to see that the circumstances are indeed different, and therefore the actions can be different to achieve the desired result. This is good.
Going up another level now. Could it be then, that even in the midst of this new challenge, and in dealing with it, that I can still rediscover the practice of making art, and be soothed by it once again, and maybe in an even deeper and more impactful way.