Thinking Patterns
There are patterns of thinking in me that have saved me. It allowed me to push through difficult times and circumstances, and I have indeed pushed through them. I am grateful to those ways of thinking, to those traits, for they served me well. But with all traits, there are effects. A separation from the self, a hyper-vigilance, the feeling that it will all slip away if I flinch.
7th day of the year. Have started thinking about and working on the MQTT course. I did some due diligence and that is what I decided upon. But I am putting pressure on myself. I have created expectations of how fast progress should be going and the deadline for launch. First Jan, now Feb. Thinking that now end of Feb is too long.
Why do I need these strict deadlines if enough income is coming in to cover all expenses and then have some left over? The thinking patterns must be different because the circumstances are different. I am so lucky. I get to be an artist. I have the opportunity to work on my craft in an unrushed manner. To give each step the proper time it deserves, so that my course participants get the high quality they deserve.
Use it. Do not waste it.