The Point
How is it that I manage to feel so inept still, even though I have accomplished so much already? I am in this enviable position. People are amazed at what I have done on Udemy. And yet I feel inept. I am constantly worried that I am not doing enough, that I am falling behind, that I am not doing the right thing. This is madness.
For most of my life, I have had dreams for the future. But I do not feel that way these days. When I think of the future I feel worry, that things are just going to get worse. But I have never been in a better position to make things better for myself, to contribute more to the people around me.
When does this end? This can't be the second mountain.
What is it exactly that I want? What's the point of all of this? What's real in this fake world? It has to be that it is an opportunity to make difference in people's lives, to help people get where they want to go. To practice my art, to create art, art that creates change.