The List
For the past few days, I have had quite a few thoughts of worry circling my mind. And for the past few days, I have been avoiding this next logical and very important step, which is to write them down. I know all too well that keeping thoughts in, especially worrying ones, is detrimental to my well being.
I think that I have been avoiding the writing for the past few days because it just felt too overwhelming, entailing the expending of mental and emotional energy that I just did not have. I feel that I do not have the energy right now, but I am still going to give it a shot.
So I am going to try to list all of the subjects of my thoughts. I may miss some, but I will try my best to get as many as possible. Here goes:
(1) Trigger finger on right hand.
(2) Eye checkup and getting new prescription lenses.
(3) Slowing of hair loss.
(4) Changing workout plan to include stronglifts 5X5.
(5) More new clothes.
(6) Adjustment to existing t-shirts and jeans.
(7) Restarting of private gym exercises for sexual health.
(8) Getting second opinion on Malasma on face.
This is a long list and this is not even all. This seems to be very overwhelming. I have been here before. One of the key mistakes I think that I have made before is the expectation that these things will get done quickly. And when they are not done quickly, I get frustrated and give up.
So now something different. A new expectation. These things will take a long time to resolve, to be done. So it's OK to go slowly. In fact, that's the only way to go.
So now I am going to do what I have not done before, and that is to relax.