Remembering Enough
Friday evening. End of the day. End of the week. I guess maybe I feel a bit vulnerable this evening, not sure why. You know sometimes you just want to rest your head on someone's shoulder? That kind of vulnerable.
At the same time, it's good that I have the time and emotional space for a feeling like vulnerability to surface. With the normal speed of this life, vulnerability typically does not get a chance to see the light of day. So I will say I am grateful. Because I am.
I keep getting scared that I am not doing enough and that I am not moving fast enough. A new course every month. That's possible, but I would not be able to have a life or do anything else. I know why I keep getting scared. I know why I keep doubting myself. No matter how many mountains I climb, how many problems I solve, how many ways I have improved, it is not enough. It's just not good enough.
What I feel about myself is not what others see. They see someone and something much different.
So remember it now. Look at the success of the recent experiment. That's a big thing. You have become different now. Look at the technique that I created in the past two days to use Claude for building a course. Look at the generation of text, the generation of diagrams. Amazing progress. Very value-added progress.
You're doing a good job Emile, you are. Step by step, bit by bit. Live this. Enjoy this ... before it's too late, before you run out of time.