Of Not Being Further Along: A Non-Reality
I should be further along. I should be exercising more. I should have started weight training some time ago. The creating of new courses and the updating of existing ones is taking too long and I am falling behind. I am behind in my work, in my health and well-being, in earning income, in planning for the future, in everything in my life. I am behind and it's just so overwhelming to think of how I can get ahead. It's too much work and I do not know how to do it. I am lost. All is lost.
Above is the feeling. It is a real feeling that is being felt, but it is also not based on the reality. I, actually, am doing fine. I am not behind, I am not lost, all is not lost.
This is the really real. There is no behind or in front, but rather there is the work that is to be done today, to the best of my ability. That's it. The practice is the goal. It's counterintuitive for the human mind. The mind does not want to accept that. But that does not make it untrue. The practice is the goal.
The antidotes to all of this:
- Trust your self.
- Recognize this is an infinite game, the point is to keep playing.
- Find joy in the play.