Not The Best Day
It's one of those days. I don't feel like lifting a finger. I have no desire to do anything. I don't have the energy. I can't seem to feel why I am doing all that I am doing. It feels like no matter what effort I put in, it will not make a difference. I just want to jump into another life where I do not have to be concerned with all of these things. I feel that everyone has it easier than I do, and that they are way ahead of me. I feel that I have made the wrong choices, the biggest one of going into business for myself. Things would have been so much easier in a job. I would not have had to think, strategize and adapt as much as I have to now.
Look at me now. Look how I keep checking for a few more dollars in sales, just getting by. I have worked so hard to do more than just get by. After all of this work, and all of the effort, it seems that I am failing. I am going down when I should be staying the same or going up. I feel like such a failure.
Now for the next step. It is to remember that feelings do not necessarily reflect reality. Sometimes they are totally opposite. As de-motivated as I feel right now, I am going to take one step, then another, then another, until I get through today.