New Attitude, New Style, New Posture
The past few days have been interesting. The hyper-vigilance is still with me and that is understandable. But it is not constant and persistent as I am accustomed to. So that's a difference. More and more, it feels like I am seeing things closer to what they actually are. And what "they actually are" is that the situation that I am in presently is one that I have never been in before. If I have never been here before, if this is indeed new, then my attitude, style, and posturing has to be new as well.
I have this significant savings, like I have never had before. Udemy/PLCDojo income is seeing wide fluctuations, but there is still income. It is very much there. Attitude, style and posturing can indeed be different.
It can happen now. It truly can. Everything to support it is there. I can design a new life, and I think that I have already started in a couple small ways. I can begin living now in the manner that will be how I desire to live (for the most part) for the rest of my life.
I feel that I can finally lay down my sword and shield, and just exhale a bit. I feel that I can take up balance instead. I feel that I can have rhythm instead. To tend to the various parts of my life in the measure that I deem them to be, in the measure that I think they should be.
Maybe I am seeing that there is nothing really that I have to do, ultimately. In the end, I am life, part of all life. I am part of the flow. I have all that I need to be part of the flow. I am enough and everything by just being part of the flow, the circle of life.