Different This Week (Hopefully)
I have realized that I have to play a different role. I realize now that I have to lead. I have to lead in my own life, in my marriage, and for the people around me. And what is very important as well is that I have to play more of a leadership role for my audience. Some of them already see me like this, but I have to take it further. The only way to start becoming a leader is to practice leading, even though you may not know how to lead in the first place, even if you are not a natural born leader.
I do have enough time to do it all. That's simply the truth. But I procrastinate with the uncomfortable and unfamiliar things, precisely because they feel uncomfortable and sometimes downright scary. This trip feel scary to me. I feel that I will make so many mistakes and that I will mess it up. And I also feel that something bad will happen because we are so new to this. Very nervous about it. And that has me procrastinating to execute the tasks on it. The tasks are not hard at all. All I have to do is to take my time and dedicate the time to it. But I have not been dedicating the time.
The key this week is in doing the uncomfortable work, in working differently. It may be that I do things differently, in a more boring and ordinary way. But it has to be this week. I can do it.