Can't Seem to Find It
At the present moment, I do not feel like expending any sort of energy to do anything. I do not want to work, I do not want to eat, I do not want to do any creative thinking, nothing. Everything feels boring and hard and futile. It all feels monotonous as well. I am just grinding away and all that is ahead of me is the grind. I feel trapped in my own life, by my own thoughts, actions and routines.
And because I do not feel like doing anything, I feel that I will be falling behind. So I have no peace. Want to just sit here and do nothing but I can't seem to sit here and do nothing. I am dissatisfied and frustrated either way.
Let's try again.