Calming Down
Fear.
Panic.
Loss of control.
Setback.
Progress eroded.
My hard work wasted.
Hours and hours of sweat wasted.
I won't have enough money.
I will never have enough money.
Another instance of people and things holding me back.
I will never truly get ahead.
What a waste of my money.
Above is the best that I can express what I am feeling right now. $10,000 for Mom's Birthday party. Ridiculous. And maybe as much as $40,000 for the vacation. What a waste.
But I need to see. See that I am in a different place now, that I can afford this now. That I am smart enough to keep the income growing and coming in. I can be calm in the chaos. I can and will rebuild and will come back even stronger.