Adjusting Expectations
I think that I know what I have to do. I know what is best, and how I should be. And even though so much inside of me is resisting it, I know what has to change. I have to expect differently.
The revenue is falling. And all that I want to do is to abandon every other aspect of my life and focus singularly on doing things to drive the revenue back up. That's what I really want to do. This part of me feels that it is irresponsible to execute any other strategy, especially the change of priorities and expectations that need to occur.
But I know that I need to do that which is uncomfortable. If I do not do it, then I will be my Father. Saying it in writing is impactful I must admit. I will be my Father if I do not make this change.
I guess that you could say that there are four big buckets in my life:
(1) Health and well being.
(2) Personal things.
(3) Revenue generation.
(4) That which feeds the soul: playing, reading, building, being in awe.
And in the midst of all of this, there still has to be the rediscovery of joy, of my true self, and my true way of being. Otherwise I would have missed the point, missed the beauty and awe of this life. I would have missed it completely, and that would be a complete tragedy, one that is worse than death.
Each and every day I have to find a way to balance all of the above. One must not suffer because of the other. And most importantly, health and well being must tower above all, for it enables the rest. So there must be balance.
And because there must be balance, I will find that certain things will take longer than I would like or expect. This will be especially true of revenue generation. The temptation will always be there to work in this area at the cost of the rest. It is how I have operated for a very long time. And, with some exceptions, it is how I have operated for this year thus far.
But it is possible to begin adjusting any time. I still have 2 months left in the year. I can begin the change, but only if I adjust my expectations of the manner in which the change will occur. It will be slow. Very slow. That will be a hard pill to swallow.
But what you have to do, which will feel very uncomfortable, is to set out things in the day to try to achieve balance, and set out less than you think you should do or think you would be able to do. Move slower but on the things that matter, or the things that give you a little bit of leverage every day, however small that leverage may be. It will take some time and some doing. It will be difficult. But you have to try.
Slow and steady and strategic to find that balance.