A Need I Cannot Articulate (As Yet)
I already have a practice of writing in a paper journal. I do not write every day, but rather just when I feel to. And that's OK. But this evening, I started looking for an easy way to start a personal blog and this Bear Blog site came up. I liked the simplicity of it so I decided to use it to start my personal blog. And thus here I am writing my first post.
Why do I need to start a personal blog if I already have some semblance of a journaling practice? I am not quite sure. But even though I am not sure, this feels like the right thing to do. In fact, writing this post feels pretty good.
Maybe sometime in the near future my subconscious mind will inform my conscious mind of the reason, of the need. But right now, it is so unclear to me that it is impossible to articulate. It's all a feeling, an almost visceral need.
I think that this is one of the things that I can do for myself that has no goal. The joy, the point, is in the doing. This feels very much like me, a version of me that I used to know very well, but gave up because things like this were not practical nor productive. But a thing does not have to be the latter to be beautiful. And maybe that is what I am looking for, some more beauty. I need to get back to the beauty.